Wednesday, April 13

journaling

Today I wrote my last entry in a journal I started in November 1997 when I was almost 16. Yes, it took me 13 years to fill 184 pages.

In my defense, I did fill a separate journal for my 18-month mission. At least I have that. But overall, not impressive dedication for a girl that enjoys writing, eh?

Reading back through this record has brought me to three conclusions:

  1. I'm emotional, bipolar, and dramatic at every single age. 17? 25? Pretty much the same.
  2. I'm ridiculous. Simply ridiculous. There was a 5 day stretch where I went from considering marrying one guy to pretty much being in love with another guy. Oh, Jackie at 20... you can wear a person out.
  3. I've learned a lot in 13 years, mostly from stupid mistakes. But valuable lessons still.

So I'm glad it's filled. But as I said in an entry back in 2002, may my posterity not think I'm psycho.

17 comments:

Hksedwick said...

HAHA...it is always funny to read old journals.

Megan said...

I'm not sure I've ever actually finished a journal...so I'm impressed. And I laughed out loud at the conclusions you drew :)

whitney said...

you're not alone. reading old journal entries of mine has brought me to the conclusion that i also was ridiculous as a teenager and as a college student. that must mean i'm ridiculous now, too. :)

CYD said...

very impressive! although I'm afraid all of posterity will think we're psycho!!! if i'd kept a journal all those years? woa....

madeline said...
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madeline said...

agreed. i think all people are just a little crazy. journals aren't the best judge of character. 'cus they don't judge at all. maybe that why there's so much info in them?? is that deep?

Michal Thompson said...

You are grown up enough to realize all this, that is pretty good!

Liz Smith said...

bwahahaha!!!! this made me laugh really hard. honestly, that is the reason why i haven't kept a private journal, because my mind is a scary scary place and i am just mortified at the thought that the only legacy i'll leave is craziness. maybe i'll start one though...if anything to laugh at myself in 20 years.

now, i think i was around to know 20 year old jackie and i want to know who those 2 men were. i think i can think of maybe one, but the second one is killing me. !! lol. darn you and sparking my curiousity!

Alicia said...

Pretty sure my old journals are duct taped shut to discourage Wade from reading them. :)

Charity Brown said...

Haha! Love reading journal entries from back in the day! :)

Mortensen Baby Farm said...

Awwww the ole journal reading eh? I have read through a few of mine and actually gotten embarrassed! Some of the things I have said...sheesh!

Proud of ya...hopefully you will be able to look back at these current entries and just smile and not think you were bipolar! You are a NUT!

The Fox Family said...

haha! I LOVE reading old journals too! And I would like to think that I have toned down the drama just a touch since I was 16...hopefully! ha Entertaining for sure!

Lindy said...

Reading old journal entries is so, so painful! It just makes me cringe!

Also, we always knew you couldn't resist hair parts or jean shorts.

The Richmans said...

I love that you posted about this. I feel the same way about my old journals. I'm terrified to have my posterity read some of the things I used to write about! I was a nut case!

One thing I do like about reading old journal entries is that I see a pattern of worrying about something to death, and then it working out, worrying, working out, etc. So at least I can find comfort in knowing that some how things always work out even when it seems like they won't! :)

Stacey said...

You have to include the blog as a journal as well. Maybe not quite as honest, but a documentation of life non the less.

Ben's conclusions were he has always loved food, is always concerned about time, and has always loved to shop. Your conclusions are a bit deeper.

Love ya my emotional, bipolar, and dramatic sister. Must be genetic, it sounds familiar!

Tiffany said...

I love that last line - I think I might have to steal it as the first line in my new journal I'll be starting here shortly.

Dallings said...

Hey if you let us read it at scraps, I probably wont have to come up with a topic for the night. You are so funny.